I’ve been open about my life long struggle with anxiety/depression on this forum, so I sincerely empathize.
As EdsNote notes, mindfulness meditation along with exercise is very beneficial. I tried an SSRI just long enough to know that it was NOT for me. I hated the feeling of dullness and detachment.
High CBD cannabis strains, and especially standardized CBD products provide an excellent lowering of anxiety and depression as a temporary respite, and are NOT addictive physically or mentally. High CBD strains and standardized products do not produce any strong high typically associated with cannabis use.
I use such typically in just a few hours prior to sleep, as a means to experience anxiety relief, a bit of euphoria, and to reconnect with my artistic side still in tact despite the fucking craziness and stress that has become our collective experience in the US.
If you are in a state that hasn’t legalized cannabis medically or otherwise, there are some companies that sell CBD products derived from hemp, and ship to those states. There is some ambiguity as to the actual legality, but orders are indeed processed and shipped.
For what it’s worth, there you go Yunzer.
Hang in there.